Saturday, July 16, 2016

Coming Out of Hiding

Hello there for my few stragglers hanging in there, I'm mostly shouting into the internet void at this point. 

(laughs quietly)

There is no pretty way to say this, and I've thought of posting about it the whole time that I've been gone.

For whatever reason, with whichever explanations and diagnoses etc that one could give me, I've been unwell for quite some time.

Truth be told, I was struggling with my mental health the entire time I ran this blog, and when I returned home from London--the few months that I felt I could really make it out of whatever hell my brain created, I fell into a pit of despair.  I kid.  Sort of.  I entered my senior year of college hopeful that being back at school would make it go away, but the sadness lingered on as I lived one of the objectively best years of my life so far in a house with my best friends with great classes and the best grades I'd gotten since Freshman year. I just couldn't shake it the nothingness.

I returned home in the summer feeling defeated and hopeless, knowing that I had to figure out how to make myself happier, because as much as it was taking a toll on me to feel so terrible all the time, it hurt even more to see the people I love look so dejected whenever I'd pull away from them.

I entered therapy (a few years later than I should have, yikes) this past January, and while I still have a lot of poor mental and physical habits to undo, I feel more like myself at this point than I have in the year+ that I have been gone.

To be honest, I'm not sure where I'm going with this blog.  I don't want to delete it at this point, because although I find it a bit silly and beyond my current interests, it was a big part of my life for a few years.  I might continue using this platform for posts that reflect who I am now more, or I might leave it as is as a relic of my college years. Either way, it's not likely to be deleted, and wherever I choose to end up will be posted somewhere as an update in this space.

For now, if you would like to keep up with my (at times, incoherent) ramblings, you can follow me on Tumblr.

Monday, October 20, 2014

Last Minute Halloween

Hello everyone!
As the beginning of fall has quickly zoomed by, it's almost Halloween! If you're like me and too busy to spend actual time gathering a costume or even thinking about it, I have a possible solution!  Consider what you have in your closet that could be added into a costume.  Since I have a lot of black/grey/neutral clothing, I made a couple of sets that were attainable ideals with things that I already own!

I hope that some of these ideas work for you, and if not they give you inspiration for what you could do with your wardrobe!

xo, Kayla


Dauntless Faction from Divergent by Veronica Roth

Wednesday Addams

Wednesday Addams from The Addams Family

Lydia - Beetlejuice

Lydia from Beetlejuice

Saturday, August 16, 2014

Topshop Sale

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We've officially hit mid-August today, and that can only mean one thing: most of us in this sphere of the internet are heading back to school soon.  While I'm sad that the days of sitting by the pool, sleeping in, and watching tv marathons all day are almost over, it also feels pretty good to know that there is a built in time to start over again every year while you're still a student.  Plus, we've got my favorite part of back to school starting right now, end of summer sales!  The first sale that I'm ransacking for you all is Topshop.  As you can see, I've picked out some of my favorite basics that you can pick up to add some basics to your fall wardrobe.  These pieces are mostly neutral in color, can work for all seasons with some creative outfit combinations, and best of all are much cheaper than they usually are!

Enjoy sale season!

Kayla xx

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Beauty Buys

Hi friends!

Today I went by the mall for an actual productive reason and ended up stopping in Sephora anyway.  Don't pretend like you don't do it too!  I went in to buy the full sizes of two products that I have sampled recently: Benefit's they're Real! push-up liner and Clinique's dramatically different moisturizing lotion, and I came out with a third item that I'm freaking out about over here.

The Clinique moisturizer has been around for a while, I think, unless they have reformulated it recently, so when I saw a little sample bottle for purchase a few months ago, I was curious enough to try it.  I have to say that it exceeded my expectations.  I have sensitive skin that is oily only on my forehead and chin and is dry on my cheeks and nose.  This moisturizer is dramatically different (ha, bet you've never seen someone make that pun...) than any moisturizer I've ever used.  I know enough about skincare to understand that everyone needs to use a moisturizer even if they have oil-prone skin, but I have never found one that did everything that I wanted it to.  Most moisturizers would either moisturize my skin but make it oily or break me out.  Some would not break me out or cause excess oil, but I also didn't think they made a difference in my dry spots.  This moisturizer sinks into your skin instead of sitting on top of it, makes it feel softer, and is gentle on sensitive skin.  Plus, it doesn't break me out!  To be fair, I use it sparingly in my oily areas, but I still put a little bit on there and it's not causing problems!  If anything, it should eventually help those areas to not be oily, because my skin will start to recognize that I will supply those oils and it doesn't need to.  I'm hoping that this will be my end-all be all moisturizer for a long while.

I received a random package from ULTA this summer with a sample of Benefit's new eyeliner, the They're Real push-up liner.  I think that maybe they were sending all of the platinum members a sample, but since there was no note, I'm not certain.  I admit that I was a bit skeptical about the liner, because lately it seems like every makeup company is trying to create the perfect eyeliner pen in either a gel or kohl form.  To an extent, eyeliner application is definitely a skill.  With that said, I love this eyeliner!  The plastic tip is kind of like the nib (nub? i don't know) of a quill and the gel come out diagonally of the end, if that makes sense.  I haven't actually experimented with the pen that much, but I decided to buy a full size one at home and throw the trial size in my handbag.  If anyone wants an in-depth review of the product after I've used it for a little while, let me know.

Okay, I was a little bit naughty with the final purchase...dun dun dun: The Naked 3 palette.  *everyone gasps*
Obviously a ton of people (especially beauty bloggers) have this palette already, but I waited a long time to get it for a few different reasons.
1) I have the Naked, Naked 2, and Naked Basics palette.  Getting the 3 seemed like too much for me, especially buying it on a whim.  
2) At first, the rose colored hues scared me a little bit.  I wasn't sure if they would look good with my skin tone and my eye color, and I was really unsure if it would get enough use to merit the price I would be paying for it.  
3) I have enough (by sane standards) eyeshadow and a few different eye palettes, so did I really need it?

After a few months passed and I started lusting for another eye shadow palette (guilty pleasure, along with lipstick), I narrowed down my picks to this palette, because it's different than the palettes that I currently own compared to my other choices (the Lorac Pro, Smashbox Full Exposure, or Too Faced Chocolate Bar).  

The reason I've bought it now is because I got my grades back from my semester abroad, and they were the best grades that I've earned while in university.  Now, I didn't receive rewards for my grades growing up.  I was very self-driven, and my parents would have been equally happy with me if I got a 2.0 instead of a 4.0 in high school as long as I was trying my best and happy.  College has been a new ball game for various personal reasons, mainly that for the last year and a half I have been riddled with anxiety that I hadn't experienced to this degree before.  To go abroad and have an amazing experience, living life as fully as I could, and to also receive the highest marks I've had in a while was a really big deal for me, so this was my reward.  :)

I can't wait to mess around with the colors and report back!


Kayla xx

Disclaimer: I know that I am more fortunate than many people, and in no way do I ever want to make someone feel bad.  If I could give you a Naked 3 (or whatever) for trying hard at school or work or whatever you do, I absolutely would, but I can't.  :(  Please know that I never want to make you sad and that if things are shitty for you right now, you never know what your future will hold!  For all I know, I'm going to be broke as shit as a 40 year old and you will be a CEO!  I believe that there is enough abundance, security, and happiness for everyone, and we just haven't figured out how to achieve that yet.  :)

Wednesday, July 30, 2014

My Every Day "no makeup" Look

Every Day "no makeup" look

As always, start off with clean and sun screened skin.  Take a peek at your natural skin and decide how it's doing today.  If you don't need or want to wear concealer, then don't!  [Though, really, that applies for the whole makeup thing.  If you don't want to wear it, don't.  Plain and simple.]  The BB cream does most of the work evening the skintone for a light, fresh look.  It also may contain sunscreen, so you can skip a step in your morning routine!  Please note: Maybelline Dream Pure does not protect your skin from the sun, unlike most of the BB creams that I have encountered.  Next, use a kabuki brush to lightly dust powder all over your face, paying special attention to your t zone, or anywhere you personally notice oil at the end of the day.  Your skin is done!  Feel free to add a little blush if you don't have a natural flush and feel more comfortable with some color on your cheeks.  Ditto with bronzer, but use it sparingly.

Regarding the eyes, I would skip using eyeshadow and eyeliner.  If you feel the need to wear eyeshadow, I recommend using a cream shadow in a beige or taupe color all over the lid with maybe a touch of highlight on the brow bone.  For eyeliner, stick to a pencil liner in grey, taupe, or brown for a softer look.  Girls who don't have naturally luscious lashes (raises hand) can add a coat or two of mascara, and if you want to really go for the natural look, use a brown or brown/black mascara.  Finally, if you have really light brows or your brows are sparse in some areas, give them a little touch up with your favorite brow product.  I really like Gimme Brow, because the gel gives them a nice structure and little bit of color on its own or I can wear it on top of powder or pencil (or powder and pencil, yowza!) for a more striking look.  For this look, though, I just swipe the gel through my brows and flick the Boots brow brush through them to diffuse the color a little bit.

The last area is the lips.  Prep your lips for the day with a lip balm that contains SPF--it is very important to remember that your lips need to be protected from your sun like the rest of your skin.  I used a clear balm by Fresh.  You can stop at this step and call it good or, if you want to add a little color, top it off with a swipe of sheer lipstick.  My choice of the day was Dior Addict, and I am loving the color.

The key for this whole look is light application, using products sparingly and only where you need them.  You are lovely just as you are, and this look reflects that makeup is supposed to enhance your features, not cover them up.

I hope you all have a great evening (or morning, hello, Australians!) and I'll catch you later!

Toodleoo, chickadees.

Kayla xx

What is your go to makeup for a light or no-makeup look?  Let me know  what you use or put links to your own blog posts in the comments below, I'd love to read them!

Monday, July 28, 2014

Music Monday #2 | Ed & 5SOS

Disclaimer: This post is nothing new, I will admit that right now.  If you are hoping for a post about music that you’ve never heard of before and artists that aren’t current pop culture, then I will not be offended if you stop reading here.

Hey, there, those of you who stuck around! :) This Music Monday is all about the two new albums that I’ve been listening to on repeat for as long as I’ve had them: X by Ed Sheeran and the self-titled album that 5 Seconds of Summer released last week.  As anyone who follows me on Tumblr (or who I’ve slipped up around in person…) knows, I am a huge fan of One Direction.  I begin with this, because honestly, if I didn’t listen to One Direction, I would have been exposed to Ed and 5SOS much later than I was.  

5 Seconds of Summer, 5SOS (sauce, btw, if you haven’t been yelled at on the internet already) opened for One Direction during the Take Me Home tour, so I heard about them via Tumblr for 5-ish months leading up to when I saw them in concert last July.  I thought the Australian boys were pretty adorable (even with some questionable hair styles i.m.o.), and I really liked their sound. Honestly, if you do an album comparison of what I listened to in Jr. High/ High school versus what I listen to now, my current music taste is much more varied. I would have NEVER listened to One Direction as a teen, because I liked to think that I only listened to songs that weren’t played on the radio top 40 (aka I was a pretentious little shit, but fortunately I grew out of that).  5 Seconds of Summer are much more up my alley for back then, with a sound that reminds me of a slightly more pop version of Blink 182 (one of their inspirations), Good Charlotte, or Dashboard Confessional.

I jumped on the Ed Sheeran bandwagon when he was getting pretty popular in the UK in early 2012.  The first song I heard by him was “Small Bump.” I quietly enjoyed the song while doing homework in my dorm room until I suddenly realized what was going on and promptly yanked out my headphones to make my roommate listen to the song and feel sad with me. It was all over for me after that point.  I got to see him live in Seattle in October that year, and it was hands down my favorite concert that I’ve ever been to.  I’m pretty convinced he smiled at me at one point, but I digress… 

can't speak for anyone else, but 5 Seconds of Summer's debut album was exactly what I hoped for.  To be fair, fans that have been around for longer might have wanted something else, but I frigging love this album.  I’m so glad that they recorded studio versions of songs that they have been playing since the beginning.  Thank God I don’t have to listen to screaming fans in live versions anymore, even though listening to music live is great when you are actually there.  The singles that they released were awesome, of course, and the rest of the album has not been a let down.  CAN I PLEASE TALK ABOUT THE BONUS TRACKS?! They have released not only their debut album, but a deluxe version and special Target-exclusive version that both have 4 (different) bonus tracks.  A few of my favorite songs are in the bonus tracks, and I am so stoked that they included them.  Can I get a hell yeah? 

The Target Deluxe Edition also came with these funny collectable trading cards.  I wonder if since they call them trading cards they have different quotes on the back or something...

X (multiply) is an ex-cellent (HA) follow up to +.  X is a little bit edgier with a kind of more angst if that’s even possible.  I don’t know what’s going on in that guy’s personal life (I mean other than Nina… I think that was self-explanatory), but sounds like some shit went down.  The really cool thing about Ed's music is that he does literally everything in his songs.  He often uses a loop pedal to create the looping or echoing effects, and he even does that live in concert!  I'm also pretty sure that he plays most of the instrumental music behind his own singing, and of course he sings his own back up parts.  That sounds rather funny, doesn't it, like there are 3 of him in one room.

5 Seconds of Summer Track List with orange *s next to my favorites

Bonus Tracks from both CDs with purple !! next to my favorites

Track List for X & my favorite songs with a black + next to them

I apologize for all of my puns, stories, and bad jokes.  I try to be a little cooler when I post things about makeup and fashion, but let’s be real.  I’m a fool.

And to make a nice little segue, you should leave me some comments about what kind of music you like! Are you mad that I didn’t talk about either artist without One Direction?  Do you hate my bad puns?  My family does, so I wouldn’t blame you.  

Toodleoo chickadees.
xo, Kayla

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

Face of the Day | 12 July

 I started off with a clean, moisturized, sun screened face.  I am having a bit of a breakout right now, so I covered up any unfortunate areas with Make Up Forever full cover concealer, evened out my skin tone with Mac Cosmetic's Pro Longwear Foundation, and prevented shine with Maybelline's Dream Wonder powder.

Then, I primed my eyes with Mac's "Painterly" Paint Pot.  I used Urban Decay's Naked Basics palette to create my eyeshadow look.  I patted the light matte brown all over my lid and put the darker matte brown in my crease, blending it out to make a less harsh look.  The mascara I used was Maybelline's the Falsies.  Finally, I filled in my eyebrows with Benefit's Gimme Brow.

I lined my lips with a Rimmel 049 Natural lip liner and put on Covergirl's lip perfection balm in rose twist 225(their version of a lip crayon).  Donezo!

There is my face of the day...two weeks later, but does it make a difference?  What makeup and hair looks have you been into lately?  Any tips for keeping your face from melting off in the sun?

Toodleoo, chickadees :)

xo, Kayla